i can’t believe i wasted 8 years

This post specially done just for you (:
My BFF, Eunice Wee Hua.
yeah, you heard it. my BFF leh!

Okok, i won’t say that i wasted 8 years on her. Well, what can i say? I seriously am very disappointed in you. what the hell happened to you. oh wait, i forgot, people change, i have to accept that. I treated you as my BFF, but what the hell did i get in return? bull from you? Why the hell did i deserve that? i didnt owe you anything at all in my past life, thus why i am i getting this shit? you always say : ” jacintha have a boyfriend, then she doesn’t wants us. what the hell man, she is like treating us like spare?” but wait, think about it, who is doing this now? who is the one whom always without fail comes up with stupid lame reasons to not come for any of our meetings? and i have to say, you did well *clap clap clap* i’m impressed. because i can’t believe you can come out with SO many reasons, without even repeating any of it to get your way. and yeah. you would now go saying: ” you don’t understand what i’m going through, i have my problems too, why can’t you think for me? “  But hey, what the hell man, you can’t even spare a day for your friends whom you have known for years? think about it, how many times, of all the reasons, they were really actually true? well, honestly, i can’t really feel that any of them are true anymore. well, maybe for the first few times, i can believe, the rest?  its just plain bullshit. i can’t believe that, we are not important at all. if that was the case, why the hell didnt you from the start tell us so that we would not have to waste our precious time calling you up, giving hopes that you would come? when we could use those time more happily? think, when was the last time we met? it was 4th of june. now, what is the date now? 1st of july. what the hell. you can have all the time to go dating/outings with your boyfriend, and new friends, then why didn’t you have the time for us? is this what 8 years of friends get? if you say it was common tests. then what about after the common tests? did you even make the effort to call us up to meet up? let me answer it for you: No. Not a single time. what a great friend you are. Think about this, when you were had your worst days, who stayed by you all the way? i can say this here; Us. But when any of us needed help, were you there? take claudia for example, where the hell were you when she needed you? she was always there when you needed her. is this how you repay her? if yes, wow, what a nice way. oh yeah, don’t come saying that we are all attacking/bullying/point fingers at you, because you are the one who caused this happened, not us. not matter how hard we tried, how many times we gave you chances, you just threw it away like nohing has happened. so don’t blame us. blame it on yourself. yeah. i repeat, yourself. I’ve done my part, we have done our part.  did you ever did yours? and by the way, what the hell is with “i’m coming for the wake tomorrow, and i’ll bring someone along”? you think its some kind of a party? you think this kind of things are to be played?  what the hell man. for goodness sake. don’t even bother already please,  when you don’t even have the heart for your own friend, for someone whom you had loved before and loved you. by the way, can you please define what is friend for me? do you even know what is the meaning of it? seriously, i think you don’t.
well, i thats all. don’t need to continue anymore. When because you can say taht you cannot be bothered anymore. When i don’t think you would even bother reading this.  Since you are always thinking that you are right, never wrong. Well, at least, i showed the world what kind of best friend i had, the best that anyone could ever have.  i’ve done my part. and it would end tonight, because you want it too. you got your wish. you happy now? i bet you are.
Have a fun time with your new friends. cheers (:
go on, tell them, we are wrong about you. tell them we are pointing fingers at you, tell them, you are disappointed with us, tell them, you dont give a shit about us. or maybe tell them, you don’t know us, tell them, its childish. Because its fine with me, when as long i know what is the main problem, its alright already. if you think the reason why i’m writing this is because i still care or i’m jealous because you have new friends and  you don’t want us anymore or because you have a boyfriend. oh please don’t, because i love the rest of my girls and i’m being loved back by them too. So there isn’t a need to be for me. ha.
oh yeah. lastly. don’t be surprised if one day this is happening to you again,or if you are the one is our shoes, because i won’t be if it happens. (:
*cheers*

~ by MELIA on July 1, 2009.